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Nov. 7th, 2008

sad

 i haven't been on here in forever (about 4 months)  and i really need to get back on track....i've gained so badly and it makes me really depressed.

what makes it worse is that in the past 2 months my best friend has managed to lose 45 pounds....i don't want to sound mean or like a bitch...but she used to be the fat one....and now i am......

it makes me so depressed.
i need to gain back my control.
i have to. 

i hope everyone else is doing good :)
i'll be posting more often, it helps.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Jun. 28th, 2008

Goals

CW-195
HW-235
LW-169
GW 1- 180 by July 12
GW 2- 160 by August 2
GW 3- 130 by September 23

I CAN DO THIS!!!!!

<3 <3 <3 <3

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Jun. 20th, 2008

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arggggggg......my friend is in town for the weekend and she wants to go to the museum of science and industry because it is free all weekend and they are giving out free CAKE!!!!!!
I don't know what I'm going to do! I have such a weakness for sweets...so I hope I can resist..ugh...i'm dreading it already....


:(

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May. 20th, 2008

blah

i haven't been on here in a while.

i've totally been binging lately and I need to get a hold of myself.

ack.

i need lots of stuff. to lose weight, to find a job, to be motivated.

i wish things were easier :(

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Jan. 20th, 2008

the audition

i've been listening to theAudition's new album all day on their myspace. i love it....sooooo good.
i already pre-ordered it and i rarely do such a thing! and i'm going to see them at the Metro in 2 weeks...sweeeeet! lol and then a week after that is the Spice Girls show at the United Center! :D

today was good...getting my diet on track kinda lol. it's sooooooooo hard though, i've been depressed for a while but i think it's getting better.
only had one meal today cause i woke up late...took my diet pills...and now i'm working out...a lil' DDR action :D
things are going good. and i might have a job interview this week which would be awesome.

thats all about my day though :D

<3 <3 <3

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Dec. 17th, 2007

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my tummy is grumbling sooooooooooo much right now.
oh well.
diet coke and water it is :D

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Dec. 16th, 2007

Movies...

So, I went to the movies and I saw I Am Legend, I thought It was really good and that it was freaky and disturbing.

I binged at the movies though and had about a cup and a half of popcorn and some raisinettes candy...ughhhhhhhh....i felt so sick afterwards I had to throw it up...I didn't really want to because I haven't purged in so long...but my stomach was hurting so bad from it...ugh.

Dinner was good, I snacked on some carrot sticks before, and then had a small bit of rigatoni pasta w/light sauce 250 cal, 2 small dinner rolls(that were a bit of a binge) 340 cal. and almost an entire can of green beans 60 cal.  So totally my whole day I only had around 1000 cal.
Yay!

I am trying so hard to stay on track of things and I am going to do a liitle bit of exercising in a little while.
I need to lose weight. I have been trying for sooooo long. I'm finally going to do it.

One of my motivating factors is that I live in Chicago and Playboy is having a casting call for models next year in like March or May there.  If I work hard, I just might be worthy to try out! I hope I hope I hope. That is what is pushing me to be thin, that and to be healthier of course!
I'm going to bed soon though so good nigh!

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Survey!

Age : 21
Height: 5'2 1/2
Weight : 202
Heighest Weight: 235
Lowest Weight: 165
Goal Weight: 1)125 2)115 3)110
Favorite Food: Pizza/Pasta
Favorite Drink : Diet Dr. Pepper
Favorite Exercise : Pilates
Thinspo?  ......
Where Do You Slip Up? when I'm out with friends or family, mostly friends though
When Did It Start? probably when i started high school
Why Did It Start? it really hit me when i saw goofy picture of myself in my underwear, i broke down into tears
Does Anyone Know? no not really
Do You Want Help? not really
Diet Pills? no, I want to be healthy, not to ruin it!
Favorite Binge Food? Chocolate and ice cream...anything sweet, i'm a sucker for sweets
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? I try to stay around 1000, I don't want to starve, but I want to LOOOOSSSSEEEE
What Tips Do You Use To Lose Weight? Eat less, exercise more
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? just my face...no full length mirrors...uh uh...but i do see fat..ugh
Are You In A Relationship? yes
If So, Do They Pressure You To Be Thin? - he tells me i could afford to lose a bit of weight
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends? I'm the one that's in the middle, got a chubbier one and a thinner one
Are You Depressed? more and more often
Do You Self Harm? No, thought about it
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? Thought about it
Ever Been To A Psychologist? No

 

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Morning............

Got up early this morning, I couldn't sleep even with the Nyquil. My cold is kind of getting better.
We got tons of snow overnight!
Breakfast was good, I had an apple 90 cal, 2 eggs scrambled 140 cal with a little ketchup 20 cal, 1 small potato 100 cal.
And thats it until lunch, i might have some crackers inbetween but yay! So, so good so far.

Going to the movies in about 20 minutes! I'm going to see I Am Legend, my boyfriend went and saw it with his friends and he said it was really good...so hopefully he's right!
That's all for now, my cats are being insane...
:)

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Dec. 15th, 2007

Cold

It is snowing so much outside right now! I love it! I don't want to go out into it though, just watch it from the window :)
I feel so bad and sick right now, I have a hell of a cold and I have been completely binge eating all day yesterday and today :( :( :(
I went out with a friend yesterday and ate almost a whole chocolate bar and had a bunch of snacks and a big dinner...and even better yet my boyfriend bought pizza today and pop...and I ate it...shame shame shame! Oh well, I can't do much about it now....
Tomorrow I am going to go back on restricting...new week new goals.  I'm also going to exercise tonight to help...but I feel so groooooossssssssssssssss........

I just wish I was thinner. much much thinner.

Maybe someday.

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